it is becoming really hard now without my lovely man. i miss him so much and so wish he was here so i could cuddle him and tell him that i love him. i hope he knew that i loved him so much. he was my life and my best friend. i am trying to get on the best i can but sometimes its hard and i do silly things which i then regret. i do get cross with what he done but then feel guilty for being cross. its a cicle which goes round and round. i just want to know he is here with me. steve i love you and cant wait to see you again my heart is broken. xxxxxx julie xxxxxx