well its been over 6 months now without my special man. i miss him more than ever. i am really not well at the moment and need him to look after me. i hope he is there somwhere. today i have been to his special garden and decorated it for xmas it looks really special i hope he can see it he would be proud of us. we will miss him with us this year but know he will be around. steve i love and miss you more than ever julie xxxxxx