my darling steve just sitting here thinking of you how much i miss you and what i would do to have you back. why did you go and leave us like that? december is nearly here and we are not looking forward to xmas without you babe i want it to hurry up and go. i still cannot believe you have gone i just cant. i know you are near me and want you to stay beside me forever. i need you more now because every thing is going wrong.please help me. love you always and forever j xx