dsteve just because i havent put a thought on here for you dosent mean im not thinking of you .i am all day every day. i have had a bad few days i am so angry and dont know why. i wish you were here to sort me out. im doing things i shouldent be doing and thinking. im even making mistakes on here today. just over nine hundred pounds was raised on your charity night.we are hopefully going to buy somthing for icu with your name on. it is so cold but im still coming twice a day to your garden. hate the thought of you being there cold even though i know your not there and you are free. hope your somewhere warm. please please come and see me let me know your here it would make me feel better. i love you sooooooooooooo much and always will. i hope all the family are looking after you where you are and they are giving you lots of love. till we meet again love juliexxxx